Alone, but not lonely
I’m not lonely, I just love to be alone. Observing people from little distance.
That’s also how I find best spots to take photos. Not always just listening what others recommend, but also doing own research, following own senses. Searching from websites written by locals, photographers etc.
And sometimes, I might just follow where everyone is going. Or more like where those people looking like locals are going with their cameras.
That’s also best way I find ideas to write my blog, seeing how people act when they think no one is paying attention.
Don’t take this in a creepy way, because I am not any creepy stalker. It is just part of my personality, to observe and think a lot.
And well, you won’t see me stalking you. I have practiced it my whole life, so I can do it secretly 😉 I think only people who are similar with me, can see what is going on. Sometimes I might seem like I am lost, but I might actually just look around and think where to go next. Which place to see, from where to take photo or just thinking deep thoughts. Other possibility is, that I am lost, but I am too shy to ask directions… 😀
And this is me.
People who know me better, also know that I am shy and quiet person. That is just part of me. That is me.
Of course when I get to know people more, I am more social and talkative.
But I have always been that shy girl, who likes to be alone.
Already in primary school one of my teacher gave me lower number in behavior, because I was quiet and didn’t talk in the class. I didn’t always raise my hand to answer, because I was shy, and that wasn’t normal acting for me. Don’t ask me, how that is considered as part of ”bad” behavior.
Sometimes my quietness make certain people think, that something is wrong. I have seen, that somehow it is hard to think, there is people who actually enjoy being alone.
Just during last week one of my teachers wanted to talk with me, because she thought something is wrong with me.
I am not saying, that making sure would harm anyone. I actually appreciate that there is people who care, and ask if everything is okay.
But I think it is also good to start to realize, that people are different.
Class where most of students are talkative, doesn’t mean, that everyone in the school are same. Or even all those talkative persons might not be like that in their normal life.
I know, especially in tourism industry it is important to be social. But however work life is much different than student life. Life in a workplace is not same as life in a school as student.
I can be social, I know how to be social and there is not any problem for me to be social.
But in the school, I just like to study alone, I am more focused when there are not any distractions around me.
I can also do group projects. No problem at all, usually I even like group projects more than individual. Especially if there is presentation needed. But it means that everyone have to pay attention to the work. I don’t like to tell someone they are doing wrong. Or try to get those ”lazy” students understand how important it is, that they will be present in the classes. I think they should know it by themselves 🙂 It is part of respecting another students.
In my case, I’ll always have some shyness, and I’ll probably always be that girl who likes to be alone. That girl who doesn’t like to party, but rather explore around, find new places and enjoy life on my own way.
I’ll be that happily, because that is who I am.